What Now?

How do you keep the faith when you feel like your whole world is crashing down?

What do you do when you feel like someones only intent has ever been to break what you have worked so hard to build?

How do you pray when you have run out of words?

How do you cry when you run out of tears?

How are you supposed to feel when you wake up and realize that all of this crap has been just that... crap?

How do you protect you heart with out becoming bitter?

At what level are you supposed to get passed all the bull and get down to the real?

Why is this so hard?

How could you tell me that I am your everything and then treat me like I am less than garbage?

Should I keep smiling when inside I feel like I am dying?

What kind of person does it make me to still feel bad for you even though you did this to me?

The angry woman in me wants to hate you...

The wife in me wants to love you still...

The survivor in me knows that I will be okay...

Crushed but not broken, battered but not abused, all in all I am still standing and stand I will with you either by my side or watching me walk away...