Biggest Fear

I am a chicken... a big chicken! I admit it.. okay! But not when it comes to everything, I can only think of two things that REALLY scare me. Centipedes and the dentist!!! The dreaded DENTIST!
But today I faced my fear and went to a new dental office. The people there where sooooo nice and soooo patient. I literally had to pep talk myself all the way there..."you can do this Kiesha, think about your kids, teach them how to take care of themselves. You CAN do this." I walked in, the cute little receptionist was so nice. I'm good, I am so strong, I made it here, I didn't reschedule, no one is walking out crying. I am so good.Yeah that was real good until I got into that chair...


Breathe...you are going to be okay...what did he just say...how many extractions...oral surgery...oh why didn't you take care of this a long time ago... I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me... he is only going to pull two and they are way in the back, you can't even reach those with your tooth brush... omg look at the size of that needle...no don't look just close your eyes...OUCH,OUCH, OUCH.... I think he is smiling under that mask... oh my goodness my throat is numb...I can't swallow...I am going to choke and die right here...stop being ridiculous...just swallow... I wonder what they would do if I ran right now....how would I explain that to the husband...you can do this...don't be a chicken...okay here he comes don't cry...just keep your eyes closed....what on earth was that noise...my mouth is not supposed to open this wide...did he just say oops...is that BLOOD...Oh my GOD is he pulling all of them...stop freaking out...stop freaking out...I am TOTALLY FREAKING OUT...your 3 year old did better than you...oh my he's done...that wasn't so bad...why am I still shaking...oh my goodness there is really a hole there...i wonder if he will give me a shot of Novocaine for the road...you big baby you weren't even in there for an hour...an appointment for the other 3 TEETH, sure no problem....oh gosh...I can't breathe...

So I still have the rest of my teeth, I had an abscessed tooth so this was kind of an emergency get it out of there. It totally wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but it was still very frightening. And right now I am waiting for the pain pill to kick in cause I feel like I just gave birth through my face. It always amazes me how long it takes things to go from your head to your heart. In my head I know there is nothing to be afraid of, the office was clean, the people were nice. The dentist was very professional, I know that I need to do this for my health. But in my heart... well you already read that part. Maybe next time I will be a little more brave. Maybe...

On a side note I got to see the teeth that they pulled, so gross, God Bless the dental industry, I could never do it!