Inspired by a Con

A friend of mine once said
That he lives not by religion but by a standard instead
And it made me sit back and take a look at me
Take a look at my life where I am and where I thought I’d be
I do not consider myself at all to be religious person
However I do know the holy one and we’re here for a reason
But what is the difference between religion and spirituality
What is difference between the old and the saved me
Are my thought patterns changed , are my behaviors the same
Do I carry myself different since I have called on the Saviors’ name
I would like to believe that I am but I really don’t know
Cause when no one is looking how far would I go
God knows I been tempted, and some test I have failed
But because I know the Lord loves me the Christ in me will prevail
I mean isn’t that the point of this life that we live
To spend our time here on earth knowing we are His
I know people who would chose to argue with me
“We will all get to heaven if we are just as good we can possibly be”
Well I am here to tell you that I know that is not true
And if you don’t believe me have I got a story for you
I know you’ve heard it before about this man that came here to die
They cursed him, mocked him, nailed his hands, feet and pierced his side
However do you know the promise of his life and the purpose of his death
The freedom there is in knowing that you can choose to be different than the rest
I can already see you rolling your eyes saying here we go again
But know that this is different this is where a true freedom begins
The difference between having a religion and a relationship
Is knowing that you can face all things fully and adequately equipped
I know you are thinking yeah okay this sounds exactly the same
But you have no idea where I was when I heard my Saviors name
Pain and agony tormented me, a step away from suicide
On the outside I looked okay but inwardly I already died
I had this gaping hole that I constantly tried to make full
From drugs to sex to anything, to make the pain dull
I even tried religion, went to church every Sunday or two
I mean that is what I was taught what else was I supposed to do
But I knew church people, religious people and I wanted no part of that
I knew how they dressed up on Sundays, best clothes and their special hats
Is this all there was, it couldn’t be, I needed something more
I even tried to read the bible but didn’t know what I was looking for
I can almost remember as if it was yesterday
The pain was so overwhelming , so I began to pray
And I don’t mean a pretty prayer full of language I don’t understand
I prayed a prayer of pain and need like I was speaking to any woman or man
I had no hope I had no plans I had no one to turn to
I has fallen deeper than I ever had, am I making any sense to you?
I cried until I couldn’t anymore, until my well was completely dry
Then I heard a voice say to me “Now you know why I sent him to die”
The voice I heard was the voice of God, it was as clear as you reading this
I understood his pain as he watched his son die so that I may eternally live
It was for me he hung on that cross that he suffered every stripe
He took every curse and every pain so that I could tell you about his life
So what the difference you say, do you still not know
When you hit the point of no return , you have no where else to go
He is waiting for you standing with his arms open wide
The same God that has forgiven me pushes all your sins aside
The bible says that we are sinners we all fall short of his glory
That means me too and every one that will come after and before me
Nothing that you have said and nothing that you can do
Can take you away from his love and he is just waiting to show you
Don’t get me wrong I still mess up almost on a daily basis
But I have a promise of eternal life in the heavenly oasis
The freedom comes in knowing that no matter what has been done
I no longer have to run and hide I just call on the name of his son
So I think I have chosen to live my life by a standard as my friend has said
Not with religion no not at all, but with a relationship with Christ instead
If something that I have said today has touched you anywhere in your soul
Then now’s the time my friend don’t be afraid it’s time to let it go
Repeat after me open your heart to let him in and pray
And I promise you with my everything you will never be the same
Say Father forgive me I know now what I have done
I understand now with my heart and soul that I truly need your Son
Right now at this moment I give to you my all
I will try with my everything to run to you if I fall
I ask right now Father God that you forgive me of all my sins
That you give me the life you promised me, that I can start again
Thank God for giving me you Son so graciously
For loving me giving me your grace, and life eternally
Now if you said these words I want to tell you congratulations and welcome
You now have the promise of eternal life and hearing our Lord say well done
If from this point on you find yourself in trouble or in pain
Our Lord will welcome you back as long as you repent time and time again
So I guess I owe my friend a thank you for making me take this self examination
And a thank you God for blessing me and honoring with me with not a religion but a relation

To My Husband

So many times I have prayed and cried
That you could see yourself threw my eyes
It hurts me so deep inside to know
That I am the only person intent on helping you grow
All the crap that you have been handed isn't you
All the crap that you have been told it isn't true
You are a gift to me given straight from above
And I am doing all that I can to give you nothing but love
There was a time just not too long ago
When I wasn't sure where this was going to go
I spent nights crying tossing and turning
Praying to the Lord that this was just another lesson we were learning
Please God I screamed bring him back to me
I will do what ever it takes just to make him happy
I screamed at Him "you made me a promise, we had a deal"
Little did I know what was happening was the real
The real part of life not just the crap that people pretend
The kind of stuff that will make or break you in the end
I am proud, not just proud but honored to say
That I have a real man and you showed me yourself that day
Things that I prayed for in my quiet place
Were brought to light right in front of my face
Sometimes I know you wish that you could do more
Understand though that is what I was given to you for
You are more than enough for me just continue to grow
Seek God in prayer and everything you need He'll show
I know that times are hard and it get's a little tough
But with God's love and hard work we will have more than enough
Even when you can't believe in your self just know that I do
And with God on our side we'll always be able to get threw
Thank you for loving me even with all of my mess
Thank you for fighting for me when our love was put to the test
I know there are times when it would be easier to walk away
I know that there were times when I wasn't sure if you'd stay
So many people said it was over before it began
But I knew that there was nothing coming between me and my man
There will be times of pain and sadness, times of anger bordering rage
Times when I will have to remind you to grow up and to act your age
Times when you will wonder if this is it, is it really all worth it
Times when you will love me unconditional even when I don't deserve it
I know that you are my hearts every desire, my dream come true
And I pray with my everything that I am all of that for you
I know that God put me on this earth to be for you to be your wife
And that I will do with my all for the rest of my life!